Happy New Year !

New year, new month, new day and new chance to be the better version of yourself! I hope you guys have an amazing day today because it's the first Friday of 2019, jumaah mubarak!

So I'm gonna say that I can't believe it is finally 2019. And, I'm gonna be 19 this year... MAD!
I'm very sure you guys have your own new year resolutions so I'm just gonna say that no matter what your new year resolution is, GOOD LUCK. You got another 365 chances to try again so keep it up and don't give up😇

 So far, I'm enjoying my 2019 anyways. I feel blessed and grateful that I actually got another chance to live after all of those memories of 2018. Good or bad, I'll just leave it there... I'm not gonna let negativity from 2018 ruins my 2019 this time.

2018. The year where I lost and found myself. I lost a lot and I gained A LOT. A lot of shitty things happened, but it was also amazing. A lot of sacrifices and countless nights crying also the struggles to stop hating myself, feels unbelievable right now. Some day I'd talk a lot and some day I don't even wanna talk to anyone, even to myself. It feels like a crazy roller coaster ride. But alhamdulillah, I thanked Allah because I was finally slowly trying to get back up as I started take a break from university for 3 months. It was a hard and lonely journey at first, but I finally realize that my parents and my family also my best friends were there since then. And then, I'm continuously learning how to value myself more than I ever have, and I am still doing it now. I finally know how to say no when I am convinced it's a no also I'm learning to say yes to whatever my heart truly wants. I also keep myself away from dramas and negativity even though it'd come by itself but I'm trying my best to stay calm and not panic to push it away or to dump it away forever by spread positivity to others. I believe, if I do it that way, good things will come😁

2018 also helped me prove to those people who had been thinking that I can't do better, well now, what do you think? 😏

I got a lot to write actually but since I am back again to study so I'm a lil bit busy. Despite 2018 being the toughest year yet, I can't thank my family and best friends enough for helping me to keep moving forward and fight the battle of life. I promise myself, I'm not gonna hate myself anymore, I wanna spread love, I don't have time for holding grudges, past is past. Someone wants me to be happy, so I choose to be happy, no matter what. And I know, Allah is there with me, to help me. Overall, I just want to enjoy my last teen year, 2019. I believe that it's ok not to be ok, sometimes. So whenever I wanna cry or feel like crying, I won't hold myself. I deserve better, Allah knows what's the best for me. I gotta believe in Him💗

I wanna colour my 2019 with the chaos of trouble because that what makes my story even more interesting 😜

Thank you, 2018. You taught me a priceless memory.

To the better and bright future together.

Love, Nadhirah.


ps: I chose this photo as my fav picture of 2018 bcs the date was the day where I started my break from U (bcs I miss Airis & Aqilah actually LOL) ... btw, the date is nice duh...