I've been meaning to write this for a while. Longer than I'd like to admit.

My short call was on 30 October 2025. But the road to that date wasn't straightforward. 

There was an amendment to my Borang 2. In May 2025, a new amendment came into effect requiring pupils to file Borang 3, 4 & 5 within 30 days from the filing of Borang 1. I was well aware of this amendment. I started my pupillage in June. But by the time my hearing for the amendment of Borang 2 took place, it was exactly 30 days from the date of my B1. Naturally, that 30-day window had already lapsed.

So the moment the hearing was concluded and I obtained my PSP, I filed B345 immediately. Not long after that, I was given my short call date to be on 30 October 2025.

On paper, it worked out. Emotionally, it didn't feel that simple tbh.

I was anxious. I kept thinking I was late. Late compared to others. Late to gain experience. Late to appear in court on my own. And this is where I went wrong: comparing my pace to everyone else's. Still, the feelings were real. I worried that I didn't have enough time to learn, to observe, to prepare myself for what comes after the short call. It felt like everyone else was already moving, while I was still trying to catch up. 

I've always been to court. I've sat in, observed, followed my master and the LA for hearings and submissions. But watching from the side and standing there on your own are two different experiences.

Then came 26 November 2025, my first appearance in court after my short call, handling matters on my own, with the help of my favourite LA from our firm. It was in chambers. And sitting there, I realised the fear was never about lack of exposure. It was about ownership. This time, I brought this case. The file was mine. The silence, the questions, the outcome, it rested on me.  Haha nothing dramatic happened. But something in me shifted quietly.

I realised that unfamiliar doesn't mean unprepared. And taking a longer route doesn't mean I'm behind. It just means I arrived when I was meant to. 

Both dates felt scary for the same reason. Not because I didn't belong, but because I was stepping forward instead of standing beside someone else.

Maybe growth isn't about feeling confident before you're ready. Maybe it's about taking that step anyway.

And for now, that is enough.

Love, Nadhirah⋆

The only pictures I took on my short call day 😐 (I lost pictures on my first appearance huhu):

Growing up, I've always been a girl who loves to write. Maybe it's because my mother taught me to. She has always loved buying me books, be it diaries, sketchbooks, notebooks or even log books for me to collect biodata of people around me. She never stopped encouraging me to write, to express, to be honest with myself through words. And I did. I learned that writing makes me feel lighter. It's like putting the heavy parts of your heart somewhere safe, somewhere you can revisit when you're ready.

During my school years, my teachers also encouraged this habit. Every Monday assembly, no... basically every day, we had to bring a notebook to jot down whatever was said. It could be something important, or completely random, but the rule was simple: catat apa yang awak dengar. Sometimes I'd doodle instead, but most of the time I'd write.. words, phrases, announcements, anything that I heard that stuck in my head.

Then, one day, a teacher from high school said something that really stayed with me:

    "Write everything. Your thoughts, your tasks, your goals. So that you can see them."

And I've held on to that since. Because when you write, you're not just remembering. You're freeing your mind. You don't have to carry everything inside your head. Some things deserve to be written down so that you can focus on what's in front of you. Writing, to me, is a way of letting your mind breathe. It's also a way to mark moments...like..like a 'witness'(?) or exhibit that you were once there, that you existed, that you lived.

Then I entered my foundation year in law school. I still remember one lecturer telling us that law requires a lot of writing. I smiled when I heard that, because I've always believed that law and writing go hand in hand. Everything in law starts from words... a contract, a judgement, a letter. All of them begin with writing.

But when I entered my professional year, I met a lecturer who believed otherwise. I still remember the moment clearly. My classmates and I were taking notes in that lecturer's class when they suddenly said, "No, put your pens down. There's nothing to jot down here. I don't want to see anyone writing in my class. As a lawyer, use your brain to remember." I froze for a while because what she said went against everything I believed in and was taught. I thought they only said that during that particular day of our class, but nope. That's just their way of teaching. Honestly, I understood what she meant, that a lawyer should train their mind to think quickly and remember details without relying too much on notes. But at the same time, I couldn't fully agree. Merely because the concept of not wanting to see a single note taking to me is just not it... for a student.

We are human. We are not machines, not robots, nor AI. We cannot possibly store everything in our heads. There was a point where I actually tried to follow her advice. I stopped writing, I stopped taking notes, I tried to rely only on my brain. But at the end of the day, I felt burnt out. I couldn't see my own trail. I knew what I did, but I couldn't see it. There were no footprints, no words, no reflection to go back to. I just moved forward without remembering much how far I'd come. 

And recently, something happened that reminded me of why I believe so strongly in writing. A client angrily gave us a call asking about the progress for some sort of her case from 2016. I had no idea or anything about it as I was still in high school back in 2016. I was the one who picked up the call, so I couldn't help her much, but I did follow up with my master later. Later, my master asked me to find a file from 2016, a case involving a land grant. But after we found the file, the grant wasn't there. Nobody could remember exactly what happened, or where it went, or whether the client took it back. And in that moment, I thought: this is why documentation matters.

A simple note, even just one line. 'Client submitted land grant on yada yada' could have saved hours of searching and guessing (metaphor only hihi). It's such a small thing, but it makes a huge difference. But yknow what, the land grant ended up being in another firm's possession huhu, not us. This incident reminded me that when I become a lawyer (officially soon), I want to write things down, every single thing. It doesn't matter how small it is, what documents the client gave, what they collected back, what was discussed, or what was done. Because one day, those small things might matter. 

Iknow some people say that writing doesn't mean anything in the end. That once you're gone, your words can't even stand as evidence in court. And I know that. But to me, that's not the whole point. I don't write for others. I write for myself. As long as I live, my words belong to me. They remind me of what I've been through, what I've done, and who I am becoming.

Maybe it's because I was raised by a mother who believes in the power of words, or maybe it's because I know how easily we forget. But I've always believed that every word written is a footprint, a quiet proof that you've lived. 

So yes, my lecturer wasn't entirely wrong. A lawyer must train their mind to think and remember. But I still believe that even the sharpest mind needs somewhere to rest. Writing gives that rest. Because writing is not just about remembering, it's about being. And as long as I live, I'll keep writing.

After all, there's an old Chinese proverb that says, "The faintest ink is better than the strongest memory." And I couldn't agree more.

Love, Nadhirah⋆

Bismillah, and hello my friends. I am writing this on the 21st January 2025. It's been years since my last writing, 5 years to be exact. I know... and too many skipped chapters not written here. But long story short, I am currently in my final semester of law school in UiTM, and to be exact, currently in my very final week (week 14) to spend at the faculty, minus the finals szn. 

Funny how I can tell that time flies so fast though I sometime pray for it to be fast haha, yet so slow and yet, I am almost at the finish line now. I still remember my first day of law school. It was during ODL, first ever group picture captured during my ELC class, first thing that I did that morning, the friends that I had during that time, first groupmates for assignments, and the list goes on. Yes, weirdly, I still remember all those unnecessary things.

I come here today with a thought in my mind, "it's my very last few weeks here in Shah Alam, I am vlogging but at what cost?" and that's when I remembered I still have my blog here and I have not been writing for so long. I remember younger me who were always wanted to capture and remember things in my own way, and one of the way is by write about it. Yet, as I'm growing older, I did not even have a time to sit and write my feelings out. I still do journaling though, it's just that I don't have time to sit in front of my laptop and type my feelings out... I'd rather write my assignments instead of being here T-T... and maybe that is why I kinda feel like I lost a bit part of myself. So what makes me want to open my blog today? IDEK, it's just a random thought haha.

As I'm writing this, I am not sure whether I want to publish this to public or just keep this in the draft. It's already 2025, and there's just sooooo many missed chapters and it's just so awkward to think that there will may be no readers at all this time huhu. I am maturing, so does my readers... I don't think people read blogs anymore...but IDK. Maybe I'll just use this blog to update anything like how I used to? Maybe after I graduate I will post more? 

Either way, this space has always been mine, and that’s enough. Even if no one ever reads anymore, at least I can come back here years later and remember who I was at this moment, a tired, sentimental final-year law student who still believes in writing things down...am I?

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Hi, this is present Nadhirah from 26th of September 2025 writing. Woah, I absolutely forgot that I had left this draft sitting here since January T_T... reading it back now feels surreal because yes, past me, you did make it to the finish line. You've graduated, survived the hell of final weeks, and now surviving chambering :')... and life has moved on in ways you couldn't imagine back then.

Funny how I wrote about "missed chapters". Well, those chapters did happen. Some beautiful, some exhausting, some that I wish I had written down, and some that I'm glad only live in my memory. Though I'm still struggling with this now (resenting myself for not updating interesting things that happened in my life by writing), maybe that's okay. Not everything has to be written to be real, kan? They still shaped me, and here I am.

Honestly, I still remember exactly why I wrote that January draft above. I felt helpless, and very alone in the journey. I thought I wanna make a comeback on blog sebab I never update anything since 2020 or was it early 2021?... Which means, I didn't even share anything about my 4 years of law school. And reading it now, I kinda feel that maybe I was alone in that moment, but I wasn't wrong for feeling that way... I still made it. I'm here now, writing from a different kind of battlefield; chambering era 😶 (gahh this is gonna be a long post if I talk about this). But yeah, yes, chambering has been tough, not in a bad way, but a good way...(learning phase) 😛

But actually, I came back here today because I'm going through another phase right now ahahaha. I've been feeling anxious, afraid of making mistakes and disappointing or troubling my master, especially my co-master (yeah, I made up this term, tapi seriously I am blessed with them two guiding me). Like the time I forgot (not really forgot, tapi tak perasan) to fill in the date on my Borang 2 and had to amend it, which then meant applying for an extension of time to file Borang 3 4 5. This is another loooong story but let's keep it for later 😉 But now that I can finally file my B345, I keep worrying, "what if I mess it up again?".

It doesn't help that I just came back to work after two weeks MC following surgery (and yep, another long story, but this one will be kept as a secret)... everything feels overwhelming. But I'm trying my best to control myself, to breathe, to not let it swallow me whole. I keep reminding myself that I'm still here, still trying, still learning.

So nowadays (starting September tbf), I try to start my mornings with the things I love. I wake up early, so that I have extra time for myself. To do my little routines, sometimes play my favourite game: Harvest Town. So that even when work gets heavy,  I still get to enjoy being alive and enjoy the journey a bit more.

So now, this is Nadhirah, writing again after almost 5 years of silence. It feels strange to be back here. This blog has been with me since my school days, carrying pieces of my study journey (but never my degree era) through the years. And now, here I am, writing again as a Pupil-In-Chambers.

So maybe this blog will be renewed. Maybe I'll start writing here again, not just about my studies like before, but about the journey I'm on now. The struggles, the lessons, the little joys. Even if no one reads, I'll have these words to come back to (apart from my diary and journal, hehe).

To January me: you weren't alone. To current me: you're doing good. To future me: if you're reading this one day, I hope you'll smile knowing that every version of us was just trying their best.

Here's to new chapters 👩🏻‍⚖️⭐🌈

Love, Nadhirah.

ps: I know my old posts are mostly cringey...but I will not delete those posts haha. It's a footprint of me, being a normal human in her girlhood...and I wouldn't erase that for the world.

Yes, I am finally taking a courage to build my own Youtube channel 💜 As I mentioned in the description from the video, I woke up one morning and chose filming hehe. It is not as hard as you guys think because I've been doing this ever since my school days but never have the courage to do it seriously and never posted it on Youtube. But now, I am finally getting out of my comfort zone :>

Honestly, this debut video is not the best from me because it was all of a sudden but I still have a lot to show to you guys and for your information, I have about three or four videos in my drafts, ready to be published any sooner. But I surely will publish it from time to time :)

Anyways, in the video, I literally just shared about the two days that I spent after the MCO ended. Basically just running for some errands, groceries shopping, playing with my cats, and having a mini barbecue night with my family 🤍

The life during quarantine has made me think that there is actually a lot more to explore when you're alone just by yourself. But sometimes, it can be dangerous too, as negative thoughts will try to manipulate your mind if you don't control yours first. I am grateful that I have not being left alone for all the times during the MCO since my siblings are here too. My life has been better ever since their school started doing online/open distance learning because I can look forward to wake up every morning helping my sisters to set up the laptops for their classes hehe.

Anyways, I hope you can support my new (not literally) hobby as I am truly enjoying doing this, which is vlogging. I don't really remember if I ever mention this before in my previous post that I've always wanted to do vlog, which is a complete different platform from this blog 🙃 but still, I'm hoping a support from you 🤍😊

Until then, to the bright and better future together ♡

Love, Nadhirah ♡

 

Well now that I'm back again, I wanted to say sorry for not posting anything other than that only one post from last year 😶 and I'm glad to say that I am back now, even stronger.

I don't know what kind of post this one's going to be but surely, it will be long 😗

A lot of things happened last year, especially the coronavirus break and how it brings a lot of changes into our daily lives. Though it is still ongoing right now, I believe that every one of us are already getting used to this new norm and frankly I must say that I am proud to see that the new cases in my city is decreasing, and so for another cities. No matter in what city or country you're currently in right now, we are in this together! Since there are finally vaccines for covid-19, I hope you have already registered yourself to get vaccinated 🤍

I must say that I have been in a complete 'vacation' during 2020. Yes, I'd want to call that moment as a vacation. This is all because, I can say that I was in the journey of trying to get to know the outside world better. I made a big decision that I must say as a brave decision I have ever made in my life but I can't share it here, apparently. The first lockdown in my country that has been a year since two days ago was actually the mark of my complete hiatus from this blog. I was truly couldn't think of anything instead of just giving myself a break after I made that decision and live with that decision with an open heart.

Now that I am finally here now, I am happy to know that I didn't hold any grudges onto myself which means that I am completely fine and I even proud of myself. Well, looking back to 2020, it was not really a bad year at all. A lot of joys happened too. I made a lot of friends (especially the ones that aren't from my age), eventually leave those unhealthy relationships, realizing that life is not all about pleasing other people, gained strengths and confidence back, also slowly trying to get out of my comfort zone 🤍

I am truly grateful that I am here, alive, and present. And that we're finally in 2021, a year that feels like a new fresh chapter, a chance for me to lean on myself back, listens to my heart back, knowing what I want and work hard to make it happen, I promise myself to not thinking of giving up anymore. I mean, I probably will, for the next three months or ten minutes later, but I will give some space to myself to sit back to deal with the negative thoughts and come back to reality ♡

The past me has taught me to not being harsh to myself because that will makes it even worst. If you're reading this right now and thinking if I am being too easy to myself or manipulating myself, you're definitely incorrect and I feel sorry for that.

I know that we are in the middle of March 2021, but I think it is not too late for me to say happy new year to you guys ♡ Hoping and praying that 2021 will bring you comfort and happiness all along ♡

Just like the picture of the big, soft clouds moving (not literally) that I took during the quarantine time, I hope we all can moving on too from our past lives and not being hard to ourselves to do something we love. Remember, everything happens for a reason and we probably could not see it now, but have faith and keep on moving forward, and until then, you can take a look back and you'll agree with me that things will fall accordingly into its place at the right time ♡

Until my next post, to the bright and better future together ♡♡♡

Love, Nadhirah

ps: there will be a surprise soon, stay tune. hint: yt 👀

Hello, my friends! And yes, salam Eid al Adha to everyone! And also yes, I am one year older as you can tell... 🎈🤪 I know it's already been three days after my birthday but I still wanted to post this hehe. I'm so sorry for the inconvenience. (I was so busy with house chores since it's Raya days hehe so please...)

I'm so happy that I got to celebrate my birthday with my family this year since last year I only got to celebrate my birthday in college with my housemate (it was fun, but it'd be more fun if the whole fam was there) I also got to eat my favourite mango cheesecake without any guilt (lol) here and I enjoy eating all the desserts that were made for me huhu.

I can't describe how blessed and how glad I am to celebrate my birthday, the same day we celebrate Eid Adha! I mean, hello...the whole family were here and it was also my birthday...who would not be so happy when you got to experience or feel like everyone is celebrating your birthday????? (although they're not hahaha lol) but nevermind, let's just let me living with my imagination lmao.

From the bottom of my heart, I'd love to thank everyone for the birthday gifts and wishes! No word could describe how grateful I am to have a bunch of beautiful people around me! This year has been so wonderful year to me, so far!

I think that's all for now, may all of you have a wonderful holiday alongside your family!

Hello peeps! Look at me, I'm another year older, wiser and happier! 😛


Love, Nadhirah

ps: this post has been in draft for two days ( i wrote this on 12th August) yep, another episode of Nadhirah procrastinating...

It's been a month since I said goodbye to my lovely housemates. Yes, they finished their foundation last month while I'm still stuck here waiting for my second semester to start😜 Some might wondering why but I already mentioned it in my previous post that I actually took a special break from university when I was in my first semester back in June 2018 so I gotta start it all over again for the first semester with the second intakes students 😀

 Actually I wanted to write about this a month ago but since I was still in a gloomy mood after I've done my final examination before this and only having a stable state of mind lately so ya,  here ya goooo🤯

Firstly, I just wanna say that I am very grateful that these are the people that I first make friends with in college. It was kinda awkward at first but well that's normal I guess hahah. I didn't spend lots of time with them though I know I should have, but still, saying goodbye to them was very hurtful. Because the memories that I've created with them are priceless and I crave for more memories because it will never be enough.

I'll miss them for sure and I am missing them right now. I keep reminiscing the times when we all were there in D3-4, house number 6. A month ago, I still remember the smell of Iqin's perfumes. Now, when I wake up in the morning, I keep trying to remember how the smell's like and I'm legit can't remember the smell of her perfume anymore. A month ago, I still get to hear Edi's unique voice and Husna and Nadia arguing with each other about everything. A month ago, if time doesn't flies, I am still able to have a chit chat with Apah every evening after classes. But time does flies. And it flies so fast. I couldn't hear Iqin and Husna's jokes while Nadia, Apah and Edi will rolling on the floor laughing at their not-so-joke jokes anymore. Am not crying, you are!😣

It must be hard for me to survive my second semester without them. For sure, it will be tough and I know I need to fight harder this time around. Though they will not be there to make my day anymore 😳

However, I just wanna say good luck in your future, Apah, Edi, Husna, Nadia and Iqin. I love you guys a lot ❤❤❤❤❤

 I want to write more but seems like my eyes couldn't bear with the laptop's brightness (lol, what a good excuse 🙃)

Until then,

To the better and bright future together 💛

Love, Nadhirah

Hola guys! Tbh, I am so excited to write about this. We (directioners) been waiting for this for soooooo long! But, it's finally here (well am a bit late actually) aight, let's move on from that part.

What I'm trying to say is actually, this song is beyond superb! The first time I was listening to this song (is of course on the day when it comes out) I cried!!! I was drown too deep into the lyrics.

Am so happy to see Niall and Liam supporting and listening to Louie's new song (and still waiting for Harry em)

My favourite lines from this song:

I'll be living one life for the two of us

Even when I'm on my own, I know I won't be alone

Tattooed on my heart are the words of your favourite song

I know you'll be looking down, swear I'm gonna make you proud

I'll be living one life for the two of us

One life for the two of us

When I first listened to this song, I just knew it, it is for his mother :'(

So, what's your fave lines from this song?! Share wimme!!


To the better and bright future together !
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Love, Nadhirah

Nothing much, I just wanna say that I'll be missing these five lovely people and only got not more than a month to cherish my time with them :'( :'( :'(

Love, Nadhirah


ps: i'm sorry for not update anything for a long time, am busy with college :(

Happy New Year !

New year, new month, new day and new chance to be the better version of yourself! I hope you guys have an amazing day today because it's the first Friday of 2019, jumaah mubarak!

So I'm gonna say that I can't believe it is finally 2019. And, I'm gonna be 19 this year... MAD!
I'm very sure you guys have your own new year resolutions so I'm just gonna say that no matter what your new year resolution is, GOOD LUCK. You got another 365 chances to try again so keep it up and don't give up😇

 So far, I'm enjoying my 2019 anyways. I feel blessed and grateful that I actually got another chance to live after all of those memories of 2018. Good or bad, I'll just leave it there... I'm not gonna let negativity from 2018 ruins my 2019 this time.

2018. The year where I lost and found myself. I lost a lot and I gained A LOT. A lot of shitty things happened, but it was also amazing. A lot of sacrifices and countless nights crying also the struggles to stop hating myself, feels unbelievable right now. Some day I'd talk a lot and some day I don't even wanna talk to anyone, even to myself. It feels like a crazy roller coaster ride. But alhamdulillah, I thanked Allah because I was finally slowly trying to get back up as I started take a break from university for 3 months. It was a hard and lonely journey at first, but I finally realize that my parents and my family also my best friends were there since then. And then, I'm continuously learning how to value myself more than I ever have, and I am still doing it now. I finally know how to say no when I am convinced it's a no also I'm learning to say yes to whatever my heart truly wants. I also keep myself away from dramas and negativity even though it'd come by itself but I'm trying my best to stay calm and not panic to push it away or to dump it away forever by spread positivity to others. I believe, if I do it that way, good things will come😁

2018 also helped me prove to those people who had been thinking that I can't do better, well now, what do you think? 😏

I got a lot to write actually but since I am back again to study so I'm a lil bit busy. Despite 2018 being the toughest year yet, I can't thank my family and best friends enough for helping me to keep moving forward and fight the battle of life. I promise myself, I'm not gonna hate myself anymore, I wanna spread love, I don't have time for holding grudges, past is past. Someone wants me to be happy, so I choose to be happy, no matter what. And I know, Allah is there with me, to help me. Overall, I just want to enjoy my last teen year, 2019. I believe that it's ok not to be ok, sometimes. So whenever I wanna cry or feel like crying, I won't hold myself. I deserve better, Allah knows what's the best for me. I gotta believe in Him💗

I wanna colour my 2019 with the chaos of trouble because that what makes my story even more interesting 😜

Thank you, 2018. You taught me a priceless memory.

To the better and bright future together.

Love, Nadhirah.


ps: I chose this photo as my fav picture of 2018 bcs the date was the day where I started my break from U (bcs I miss Airis & Aqilah actually LOL) ... btw, the date is nice duh...

People been asking me, what do I want to accomplish in my life since I'm officially 18 years old now..

I'm making it be '18 things' just because... why not? So, without wasting any time, here's my 18 things I wanna accomplish (not only by this year, but maybe before I become 20,21,22,23,24,25???? LOL)


#2 BE MYSELF. Ya, this is really important. I need to focus on being myself and not let anyone influenced me I mean.. in a bad way.

#3 LEARN HOW TO COOK a yummy and healthy basic meal all by myself. Yes, I admit that I wasn't good at cooking and I've never tried to cook (by myself) before this. Soooo, ya I promise I'll try and I'll learn.

#4 LEARN SOMETHING NEW. idk man. As long as it is new, anything. I'm ready...maybe lol

#5 FALL IN LOVE with myself. Hahaha. Guys, we need to put ourselves first in everything. Love yourself more. I mean, I need to love myself more because that's the priority, i mean MY priority. If you could love someone else more than yourself, that means you're in a trouble mannn. OK BYE.

#6 GRADUATE. and that's that.

#7 RUN A BUSINESS. running a business is what I wanted to do since I was kid, so why not?

#8 HAVE MY OWN BRAND AND MY OWN MAKEUP LINE. THIS. IS. WHAT. I. WANT. SINCE. I. WAS. KID. TOO. yep, I guess I did talk about this before :/
#9 BE BOLD AND DETERMINED. yeah kid. that's the key to success.

#10 GO ON A ZIPLINE, BUNGEE JUMPING, SKYDIVING AND ETC. idk man, I love those things! Contact me if you're looking for a mate to do those things! I could be your best buddy 😉

#11 MAKE A VIDEO TO MY OLDER SELF once a year and make some predictions. three words, THIS. IS. FUN. it'll be awesome seeing how young and naive I was~back in the day~ (will make a video soon lol)

#12 LIVE HEALTHILY continuously. I'll try to be fit, eat clean, and be more healthy!! (it's funny that I'm typing this while I'm eating Nips. L.O.L)

#13 WRITE WRITE WRITE.  Diary, journal, blog, short story and etc. I wish I could write more, because I love to write and it helps me being myself (?) and I think it's good for my future as well.

#14 START MY OWN YOUTUBE CHANNEL. lol, I've been thinking a lot about this lately. I want to try, but I'm not ready (i guess for now?)

#15 LEARN A FOREIGN LANGUAGE. because why not? 😉

#16 TAKE A ROAD TRIP with my best friends 💓

#17 SEE MY FAVORITE BAND, EXCLAMATION MARK X1000000

#18 BE FIERCE. This will gives me strength, also will keeps me being humble and keeps me motivated. I'm sure if I'm fierce, I'll live a strongly fierce life with kindness, love and passion (all i could ever ask for)

And that is all guys!!! 18 things I want to do/accomplish sooner or later!


Oh ya, today is the birthday of one of my favorite drummer, Tristan Evans! Happy birthday brada! (though he will never read this, who cares? hehe)

I think that's all for now.

To the better and bright future together 😊

Love, Neddy 💓

Hola guys, haha I know I'm a BIT late. My life is freaking HECTIC lately 😭 

Hola guys! I'm here today just to share with you guys songs that I am currently listening to lately in my birthday month!

These songs are really special to me since the lyrics make me feel secure, give me some confidence and give me spirits to start my day and also representing meself (?) LOL

These are the list of the songs,

• Lie To Me - 5 Seconds Of Summer
• Moving Along - 5 Seconds Of Summer
• Shivers - The Vamps
• Just My Type - The Vamps
• Congratulations - Post Malone & Quavo
• High On Life - Martin Garrix feat. Bonn 🔥
• Don't Leave Me - David Guetta feat. Anne Marie 🔥
• Darkside - Alan Walker feat. Au/Ra & Tomine Harket 🔥
• Perfect - Anne Marie 
• 2002 - Anne Marie
• Psycho - Post Malone feat. Ty Dolla $ign
• Girls Like You - Maroon 5 feat. Cardi B

18 years ago today, a queen was born. Hehehehehhe!

FINALLY GUYS, I AM EIGHTEEN! It's such a bless actually.

First of all, from the bottom of my heart, I'd like to thank everyone for the birthday wishes! I was overwhelmed by receiving so much attention (at least for me) for my birthday and I can't thank you guys enough!!!

Especially to my housemates. The surprise, the fairy lights, the sticky notes thingy, and EVERYTHING. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU GUYS, for being here with me and put so much efforts to surprise me (though i'm kinda annoying haha lol) you guys know how much I laughed lately, and thank you for that 🙌 I can't really believe that we could be this close, I love you guys 😘

Also, to my family though they aren't here to celebrate, THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE. Umie Abah, thank you for bringing me to this world. The road of my growth may not be excellently smooth. But you have made all your efforts to protect my dignity and build my childhood happier than other buddies', maybe not physically, but mentally decidedly. I knew there were some disagreements and arguments between us, but still I believe your decisions for me are the best among the best and that's the truth! Really looking forward to back home....and maybe, another surprise??? 😶 Aha!

My lovely friends, you guys always got me into tears whenever it's my birthday. Nothing else to say but, no matter how far we are away from each other, we are actually close to each other all the time. I got your back, you got my back! yknow who you are 😎

I can truly say how blessed I am to have such great people in my life! I woke up this morning with too many notifications from all of you for my birthday! Big shout out to those who keep me in your prayers, singing songs for me, posting my pictures and wishing me a happy birthday!! You guys made my day, it means a lot to me 💓😇

Being 18 not only means a celebration for me, but also a step into maturity. It’s time for me to shoulder more responsibility for the family, and make a wise decision whenever imma at my lowest and no matter whether I am well-prepared for it or not.

My wishes? I'll share it all on another post 😊



THANK YOU FOR THE MAGNIFICENT BIRTHDAY SURPRISE! (YKNOW WHO YOU ARE)



11/08/18 💖

To the better and bright future together !

Love, Neddy.

Am I an adult now? 😬

Guys!  OMFG, I knew I'm a bit left behind to talk about this since I was so freaking busy with work 😔 but heyyyyyyy I'm gonna write about this however because it's on my 'to-blog-list' note!! scroll down below to know what's my fave top 5 out of 11 tunes from this album!

1. NEVER BE THE SAME
ffs, when it is my first time listening to this song I was like "DAYYYYUM" it's freaking awesome guys 😭 i love it so muchhhh. if you hadn't listen to it yet, please listen to it now!!!

2. CONSEQUENCES
actually imma not that kinda girl who loves to enjoy sad songs but this song really hits me. this is an emotional song but, i. love. it. damn. much.

3. SOMETHING'S GOTTA GIVE
this is another emotional song from this album. there comes a point in every relationship when you realize it's time to let go. "no reason to stay is a good reason to go" is my fave line from this song. trust me, you might keep repeating this song because it can be relate with our past or current relationship (it's just my 2cent)

4. IN THE DARK
guys, i don't know how to describe this one because it's so perfect. i mean, it's really nice to enjoy while you're driving at midnight with your lover! ok, now you should go listen to it asap.

5. HAVANA
omg, guys who doesn't know this song, right? everyone love this tune, so does me!

So guys, that's my top 5 fave songs from Camila album. What's yours?

Love, Neddy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Guys! I can't even believe that today is actually the first January of 2018!!!! I haven't post anything since the previous post because I'm so busy with work. Yeaa, guys. I'm working... Guess where??? It's a Pizza Hut Restaurant! Hahaha kinda funny to me because I've been planning to find a job at any drugstore in the mall but I ended up working here. But hey! I feel so blessed even though the first week was like meh :/ but I'm fine now!

Guys, fyi this is a rushing post by me and since I don't know what happened to my laptop (I haven't use it for a while) and suddenly all the apps on my laptop are PUFFF!! GONE. So, I can't edit any pictures. I'm so sad and upset with myself about this. Oh ya, and I gotta go to work at 5 p.m. so yaa :/

Year 2017 has been a great year for me. I've been through a lot of things this year. I've met a lot of amazing people, I've lost so many people around me, I've achieved something that made me proud of myself, and so on! For sure, I'll never forget my first experience being an emcee!! So many lessons that I've learnt in 2017. I'll never forget all the memories that I've created with all those amazing people around me! So many ups and so many downs but yap, that's life!

I hope this year (2018) will be my year! Since I'm so busy with my work, I maybe not able to post anything so frequently :/ But it's okay! I have an off day every week and this week is on Sunday! I'll make sure to post something (not a promise)

Oh ya! I got a long list of what I wanna achieve for this year. Since I'm gonna be 18 this year, I might enjoy my life like a real teenager hahah! I'll do anything what I wanna do.

I do really hope that I'll be a kind, pretty and smart girl for everyone. I'll make sure that I'll not burdening anyone this year. I'll try to not doubting myself. I'll try to not expecting perfection. I'll make sure to not letting society tell me how to live. I'll hold myself from being afraid of failure. I'll not relying on others to make me happy. I'll try to not making excuses. I'll never look down on someone. And I'll try to not holding onto grudges!

And... about a 'relationship'. Mm-hm. I'm not sure about this. But I think I'll just choose to love someone in silence. Because I think in silence, I find no rejection. And in silence, no one owns that person but me :)

I don't really care anymore if someone will talk shit about me or left me or even don't wanna talk to me if something went wrong. They deserve to do what they wanna do. It's their decision. I'll just live here and  keep moving and be a better version of me :)

I couldn't think of any idea what to write anymore. I'm so so so sorry guys. I'm afraid if I'll late to my workplace hihihi.

Love, Neddy.




ps : I hope you guys understand that I wrote this in a rush T-T

Heyyo! Let's start your December with somethin' great. Here is my top 4 songs that I'm always listening to whenever and wherever. It feels great to start December with these songs :



I'VE BEEN RUNNING WITH THE WOLVES TO GET TO YOU !!! I love these songs so much !!! Go listen to it or your life might be so boring this month ! Believe me, it's worth it ;)

Recommended.


Bye.

Love, Neddy.

Hello December ! I still can't believe that we're so close to 2018. Time flies so fast and that scares me a lot. I've been planning to post this on 1st December but when I was editing this picture, I didn't realize that it's actually past 12 now... ugh.

But it's fine. So, my December would be busy... maybe? Because I got a lot of things to do. Oh, and I've listed it and it is a verrrry long list I've ever wrote hahah! Right now, I'm searching for a part time job, but the result is negative :/ And still, it is FINE.

My December would be my healing month. I think this is a great month to start a new life. I just realize that I need to love myself more. So, I gotta eat healthy, drink more plain water and workout for sure! I'd do anything to keep myself away from bad vibes. So, for now I guess I don't need to listen to what people said to me. Ugh. Just hoping that I'm that strong.

Guys, seems like I wrote another boring post, eh? Hahah. It's midnight now so I don't have any creative idea what to write. But again, it's fine.

So, I stop here and it's time to bed! I need to wake up early because that's actually what a healthy life is ;)

Love, Neddy.

FINALLY THE QUEEN FOUND HER FREEDOM !

Guys, there's no words that I could use to describe how delighted I am right now! I know I'm late to share this good news because my last papers (Economy subject) was on 28th November but, at least I made it :/

So, the last day of the SPM got me like 'HIPPP HIPPP HOOORAY!' I'm sooooo happy guys. Now, I don't have to think about the homeworks, and those messy tasks anymore, apparently. YAYERS !!

We (me and my friends) took a lot of pictures, actually. But, I'll share it in another post, later! I missed my blog so much. I didn't post anything since June! Damn, that's a long time haha.

Since I'm finally free now, so I got a lot of time to blog! Apparently, tomorrow is 1st December and I've been planning to start a new routine to get a better life, let's start from tomorrow!

Okay, enough for now. I know this is the most boring post everrr. I'll update a new post soon! I'd like to share my current situation since the SPM is over. Besides, I wanted to share my experiences when I was sitting for SPM in a month and maybe I'll share to you guys what is my 2018 goals. Oh, and for sure, I'll post about how do I feel after my high school life is over :)


Love, Neddy.