People been asking me, what do I want to accomplish in my life since I'm officially 18 years old now..

I'm making it be '18 things' just because... why not? So, without wasting any time, here's my 18 things I wanna accomplish (not only by this year, but maybe before I become 20,21,22,23,24,25???? LOL)


#2 BE MYSELF. Ya, this is really important. I need to focus on being myself and not let anyone influenced me I mean.. in a bad way.

#3 LEARN HOW TO COOK a yummy and healthy basic meal all by myself. Yes, I admit that I wasn't good at cooking and I've never tried to cook (by myself) before this. Soooo, ya I promise I'll try and I'll learn.

#4 LEARN SOMETHING NEW. idk man. As long as it is new, anything. I'm ready...maybe lol

#5 FALL IN LOVE with myself. Hahaha. Guys, we need to put ourselves first in everything. Love yourself more. I mean, I need to love myself more because that's the priority, i mean MY priority. If you could love someone else more than yourself, that means you're in a trouble mannn. OK BYE.

#6 GRADUATE. and that's that.

#7 RUN A BUSINESS. running a business is what I wanted to do since I was kid, so why not?

#8 HAVE MY OWN BRAND AND MY OWN MAKEUP LINE. THIS. IS. WHAT. I. WANT. SINCE. I. WAS. KID. TOO. yep, I guess I did talk about this before :/
#9 BE BOLD AND DETERMINED. yeah kid. that's the key to success.

#10 GO ON A ZIPLINE, BUNGEE JUMPING, SKYDIVING AND ETC. idk man, I love those things! Contact me if you're looking for a mate to do those things! I could be your best buddy 😉

#11 MAKE A VIDEO TO MY OLDER SELF once a year and make some predictions. three words, THIS. IS. FUN. it'll be awesome seeing how young and naive I was~back in the day~ (will make a video soon lol)

#12 LIVE HEALTHILY continuously. I'll try to be fit, eat clean, and be more healthy!! (it's funny that I'm typing this while I'm eating Nips. L.O.L)

#13 WRITE WRITE WRITE.  Diary, journal, blog, short story and etc. I wish I could write more, because I love to write and it helps me being myself (?) and I think it's good for my future as well.

#14 START MY OWN YOUTUBE CHANNEL. lol, I've been thinking a lot about this lately. I want to try, but I'm not ready (i guess for now?)

#15 LEARN A FOREIGN LANGUAGE. because why not? 😉

#16 TAKE A ROAD TRIP with my best friends 💓

#17 SEE MY FAVORITE BAND, EXCLAMATION MARK X1000000

#18 BE FIERCE. This will gives me strength, also will keeps me being humble and keeps me motivated. I'm sure if I'm fierce, I'll live a strongly fierce life with kindness, love and passion (all i could ever ask for)

And that is all guys!!! 18 things I want to do/accomplish sooner or later!


Oh ya, today is the birthday of one of my favorite drummer, Tristan Evans! Happy birthday brada! (though he will never read this, who cares? hehe)

I think that's all for now.

To the better and bright future together 😊

Love, Neddy 💓

Hola guys, haha I know I'm a BIT late. My life is freaking HECTIC lately 😭 

Hola guys! I'm here today just to share with you guys songs that I am currently listening to lately in my birthday month!

These songs are really special to me since the lyrics make me feel secure, give me some confidence and give me spirits to start my day and also representing meself (?) LOL

These are the list of the songs,

• Lie To Me - 5 Seconds Of Summer
• Moving Along - 5 Seconds Of Summer
• Shivers - The Vamps
• Just My Type - The Vamps
• Congratulations - Post Malone & Quavo
• High On Life - Martin Garrix feat. Bonn 🔥
• Don't Leave Me - David Guetta feat. Anne Marie 🔥
• Darkside - Alan Walker feat. Au/Ra & Tomine Harket 🔥
• Perfect - Anne Marie 
• 2002 - Anne Marie
• Psycho - Post Malone feat. Ty Dolla $ign
• Girls Like You - Maroon 5 feat. Cardi B

18 years ago today, a queen was born. Hehehehehhe!

FINALLY GUYS, I AM EIGHTEEN! It's such a bless actually.

First of all, from the bottom of my heart, I'd like to thank everyone for the birthday wishes! I was overwhelmed by receiving so much attention (at least for me) for my birthday and I can't thank you guys enough!!!

Especially to my housemates. The surprise, the fairy lights, the sticky notes thingy, and EVERYTHING. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU GUYS, for being here with me and put so much efforts to surprise me (though i'm kinda annoying haha lol) you guys know how much I laughed lately, and thank you for that 🙌 I can't really believe that we could be this close, I love you guys 😘

Also, to my family though they aren't here to celebrate, THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE. Umie Abah, thank you for bringing me to this world. The road of my growth may not be excellently smooth. But you have made all your efforts to protect my dignity and build my childhood happier than other buddies', maybe not physically, but mentally decidedly. I knew there were some disagreements and arguments between us, but still I believe your decisions for me are the best among the best and that's the truth! Really looking forward to back home....and maybe, another surprise??? 😶 Aha!

My lovely friends, you guys always got me into tears whenever it's my birthday. Nothing else to say but, no matter how far we are away from each other, we are actually close to each other all the time. I got your back, you got my back! yknow who you are 😎

I can truly say how blessed I am to have such great people in my life! I woke up this morning with too many notifications from all of you for my birthday! Big shout out to those who keep me in your prayers, singing songs for me, posting my pictures and wishing me a happy birthday!! You guys made my day, it means a lot to me 💓😇

Being 18 not only means a celebration for me, but also a step into maturity. It’s time for me to shoulder more responsibility for the family, and make a wise decision whenever imma at my lowest and no matter whether I am well-prepared for it or not.

My wishes? I'll share it all on another post 😊



THANK YOU FOR THE MAGNIFICENT BIRTHDAY SURPRISE! (YKNOW WHO YOU ARE)



11/08/18 💖

To the better and bright future together !

Love, Neddy.

Am I an adult now? 😬

Guys!  OMFG, I knew I'm a bit left behind to talk about this since I was so freaking busy with work 😔 but heyyyyyyy I'm gonna write about this however because it's on my 'to-blog-list' note!! scroll down below to know what's my fave top 5 out of 11 tunes from this album!

1. NEVER BE THE SAME
ffs, when it is my first time listening to this song I was like "DAYYYYUM" it's freaking awesome guys 😭 i love it so muchhhh. if you hadn't listen to it yet, please listen to it now!!!

2. CONSEQUENCES
actually imma not that kinda girl who loves to enjoy sad songs but this song really hits me. this is an emotional song but, i. love. it. damn. much.

3. SOMETHING'S GOTTA GIVE
this is another emotional song from this album. there comes a point in every relationship when you realize it's time to let go. "no reason to stay is a good reason to go" is my fave line from this song. trust me, you might keep repeating this song because it can be relate with our past or current relationship (it's just my 2cent)

4. IN THE DARK
guys, i don't know how to describe this one because it's so perfect. i mean, it's really nice to enjoy while you're driving at midnight with your lover! ok, now you should go listen to it asap.

5. HAVANA
omg, guys who doesn't know this song, right? everyone love this tune, so does me!

So guys, that's my top 5 fave songs from Camila album. What's yours?

Love, Neddy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Guys! I can't even believe that today is actually the first January of 2018!!!! I haven't post anything since the previous post because I'm so busy with work. Yeaa, guys. I'm working... Guess where??? It's a Pizza Hut Restaurant! Hahaha kinda funny to me because I've been planning to find a job at any drugstore in the mall but I ended up working here. But hey! I feel so blessed even though the first week was like meh :/ but I'm fine now!

Guys, fyi this is a rushing post by me and since I don't know what happened to my laptop (I haven't use it for a while) and suddenly all the apps on my laptop are PUFFF!! GONE. So, I can't edit any pictures. I'm so sad and upset with myself about this. Oh ya, and I gotta go to work at 5 p.m. so yaa :/

Year 2017 has been a great year for me. I've been through a lot of things this year. I've met a lot of amazing people, I've lost so many people around me, I've achieved something that made me proud of myself, and so on! For sure, I'll never forget my first experience being an emcee!! So many lessons that I've learnt in 2017. I'll never forget all the memories that I've created with all those amazing people around me! So many ups and so many downs but yap, that's life!

I hope this year (2018) will be my year! Since I'm so busy with my work, I maybe not able to post anything so frequently :/ But it's okay! I have an off day every week and this week is on Sunday! I'll make sure to post something (not a promise)

Oh ya! I got a long list of what I wanna achieve for this year. Since I'm gonna be 18 this year, I might enjoy my life like a real teenager hahah! I'll do anything what I wanna do.

I do really hope that I'll be a kind, pretty and smart girl for everyone. I'll make sure that I'll not burdening anyone this year. I'll try to not doubting myself. I'll try to not expecting perfection. I'll make sure to not letting society tell me how to live. I'll hold myself from being afraid of failure. I'll not relying on others to make me happy. I'll try to not making excuses. I'll never look down on someone. And I'll try to not holding onto grudges!

And... about a 'relationship'. Mm-hm. I'm not sure about this. But I think I'll just choose to love someone in silence. Because I think in silence, I find no rejection. And in silence, no one owns that person but me :)

I don't really care anymore if someone will talk shit about me or left me or even don't wanna talk to me if something went wrong. They deserve to do what they wanna do. It's their decision. I'll just live here and  keep moving and be a better version of me :)

I couldn't think of any idea what to write anymore. I'm so so so sorry guys. I'm afraid if I'll late to my workplace hihihi.

Love, Neddy.




ps : I hope you guys understand that I wrote this in a rush T-T