Hello, my friends! And yes, salam Eid al Adha to everyone! And also yes, I am one year older as you can tell... 🎈🤪 I know it's already been three days after my birthday but I still wanted to post this hehe. I'm so sorry for the inconvenience. (I was so busy with house chores since it's Raya days hehe so please...)

I'm so happy that I got to celebrate my birthday with my family this year since last year I only got to celebrate my birthday in college with my housemate (it was fun, but it'd be more fun if the whole fam was there) I also got to eat my favourite mango cheesecake without any guilt (lol) here and I enjoy eating all the desserts that were made for me huhu.

I can't describe how blessed and how glad I am to celebrate my birthday, the same day we celebrate Eid Adha! I mean, hello...the whole family were here and it was also my birthday...who would not be so happy when you got to experience or feel like everyone is celebrating your birthday????? (although they're not hahaha lol) but nevermind, let's just let me living with my imagination lmao.

From the bottom of my heart, I'd love to thank everyone for the birthday gifts and wishes! No word could describe how grateful I am to have a bunch of beautiful people around me! This year has been so wonderful year to me, so far!

I think that's all for now, may all of you have a wonderful holiday alongside your family!

Hello peeps! Look at me, I'm another year older, wiser and happier! 😛


Love, Nadhirah

ps: this post has been in draft for two days ( i wrote this on 12th August) yep, another episode of Nadhirah procrastinating...

It's been a month since I said goodbye to my lovely housemates. Yes, they finished their foundation last month while I'm still stuck here waiting for my second semester to start😜 Some might wondering why but I already mentioned it in my previous post that I actually took a special break from university when I was in my first semester back in June 2018 so I gotta start it all over again for the first semester with the second intakes students 😀

 Actually I wanted to write about this a month ago but since I was still in a gloomy mood after I've done my final examination before this and only having a stable state of mind lately so ya,  here ya goooo🤯

Firstly, I just wanna say that I am very grateful that these are the people that I first make friends with in college. It was kinda awkward at first but well that's normal I guess hahah. I didn't spend lots of time with them though I know I should have, but still, saying goodbye to them was very hurtful. Because the memories that I've created with them are priceless and I crave for more memories because it will never be enough.

I'll miss them for sure and I am missing them right now. I keep reminiscing the times when we all were there in D3-4, house number 6. A month ago, I still remember the smell of Iqin's perfumes. Now, when I wake up in the morning, I keep trying to remember how the smell's like and I'm legit can't remember the smell of her perfume anymore. A month ago, I still get to hear Edi's unique voice and Husna and Nadia arguing with each other about everything. A month ago, if time doesn't flies, I am still able to have a chit chat with Apah every evening after classes. But time does flies. And it flies so fast. I couldn't hear Iqin and Husna's jokes while Nadia, Apah and Edi will rolling on the floor laughing at their not-so-joke jokes anymore. Am not crying, you are!😣

It must be hard for me to survive my second semester without them. For sure, it will be tough and I know I need to fight harder this time around. Though they will not be there to make my day anymore 😳

However, I just wanna say good luck in your future, Apah, Edi, Husna, Nadia and Iqin. I love you guys a lot ❤❤❤❤❤

 I want to write more but seems like my eyes couldn't bear with the laptop's brightness (lol, what a good excuse 🙃)

Until then,

To the better and bright future together 💛

Love, Nadhirah

Hola guys! Tbh, I am so excited to write about this. We (directioners) been waiting for this for soooooo long! But, it's finally here (well am a bit late actually) aight, let's move on from that part.

What I'm trying to say is actually, this song is beyond superb! The first time I was listening to this song (is of course on the day when it comes out) I cried!!! I was drown too deep into the lyrics.

Am so happy to see Niall and Liam supporting and listening to Louie's new song (and still waiting for Harry em)

My favourite lines from this song:

I'll be living one life for the two of us

Even when I'm on my own, I know I won't be alone

Tattooed on my heart are the words of your favourite song

I know you'll be looking down, swear I'm gonna make you proud

I'll be living one life for the two of us

One life for the two of us

When I first listened to this song, I just knew it, it is for his mother :'(

So, what's your fave lines from this song?! Share wimme!!


To the better and bright future together !
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Love, Nadhirah

Nothing much, I just wanna say that I'll be missing these five lovely people and only got not more than a month to cherish my time with them :'( :'( :'(

Love, Nadhirah


ps: i'm sorry for not update anything for a long time, am busy with college :(

Happy New Year !

New year, new month, new day and new chance to be the better version of yourself! I hope you guys have an amazing day today because it's the first Friday of 2019, jumaah mubarak!

So I'm gonna say that I can't believe it is finally 2019. And, I'm gonna be 19 this year... MAD!
I'm very sure you guys have your own new year resolutions so I'm just gonna say that no matter what your new year resolution is, GOOD LUCK. You got another 365 chances to try again so keep it up and don't give up😇

 So far, I'm enjoying my 2019 anyways. I feel blessed and grateful that I actually got another chance to live after all of those memories of 2018. Good or bad, I'll just leave it there... I'm not gonna let negativity from 2018 ruins my 2019 this time.

2018. The year where I lost and found myself. I lost a lot and I gained A LOT. A lot of shitty things happened, but it was also amazing. A lot of sacrifices and countless nights crying also the struggles to stop hating myself, feels unbelievable right now. Some day I'd talk a lot and some day I don't even wanna talk to anyone, even to myself. It feels like a crazy roller coaster ride. But alhamdulillah, I thanked Allah because I was finally slowly trying to get back up as I started take a break from university for 3 months. It was a hard and lonely journey at first, but I finally realize that my parents and my family also my best friends were there since then. And then, I'm continuously learning how to value myself more than I ever have, and I am still doing it now. I finally know how to say no when I am convinced it's a no also I'm learning to say yes to whatever my heart truly wants. I also keep myself away from dramas and negativity even though it'd come by itself but I'm trying my best to stay calm and not panic to push it away or to dump it away forever by spread positivity to others. I believe, if I do it that way, good things will come😁

2018 also helped me prove to those people who had been thinking that I can't do better, well now, what do you think? 😏

I got a lot to write actually but since I am back again to study so I'm a lil bit busy. Despite 2018 being the toughest year yet, I can't thank my family and best friends enough for helping me to keep moving forward and fight the battle of life. I promise myself, I'm not gonna hate myself anymore, I wanna spread love, I don't have time for holding grudges, past is past. Someone wants me to be happy, so I choose to be happy, no matter what. And I know, Allah is there with me, to help me. Overall, I just want to enjoy my last teen year, 2019. I believe that it's ok not to be ok, sometimes. So whenever I wanna cry or feel like crying, I won't hold myself. I deserve better, Allah knows what's the best for me. I gotta believe in Him💗

I wanna colour my 2019 with the chaos of trouble because that what makes my story even more interesting 😜

Thank you, 2018. You taught me a priceless memory.

To the better and bright future together.

Love, Nadhirah.


ps: I chose this photo as my fav picture of 2018 bcs the date was the day where I started my break from U (bcs I miss Airis & Aqilah actually LOL) ... btw, the date is nice duh...