HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Guys! I can't even believe that today is actually the first January of 2018!!!! I haven't post anything since the previous post because I'm so busy with work. Yeaa, guys. I'm working... Guess where??? It's a Pizza Hut Restaurant! Hahaha kinda funny to me because I've been planning to find a job at any drugstore in the mall but I ended up working here. But hey! I feel so blessed even though the first week was like meh :/ but I'm fine now!

Guys, fyi this is a rushing post by me and since I don't know what happened to my laptop (I haven't use it for a while) and suddenly all the apps on my laptop are PUFFF!! GONE. So, I can't edit any pictures. I'm so sad and upset with myself about this. Oh ya, and I gotta go to work at 5 p.m. so yaa :/

Year 2017 has been a great year for me. I've been through a lot of things this year. I've met a lot of amazing people, I've lost so many people around me, I've achieved something that made me proud of myself, and so on! For sure, I'll never forget my first experience being an emcee!! So many lessons that I've learnt in 2017. I'll never forget all the memories that I've created with all those amazing people around me! So many ups and so many downs but yap, that's life!

I hope this year (2018) will be my year! Since I'm so busy with my work, I maybe not able to post anything so frequently :/ But it's okay! I have an off day every week and this week is on Sunday! I'll make sure to post something (not a promise)

Oh ya! I got a long list of what I wanna achieve for this year. Since I'm gonna be 18 this year, I might enjoy my life like a real teenager hahah! I'll do anything what I wanna do.

I do really hope that I'll be a kind, pretty and smart girl for everyone. I'll make sure that I'll not burdening anyone this year. I'll try to not doubting myself. I'll try to not expecting perfection. I'll make sure to not letting society tell me how to live. I'll hold myself from being afraid of failure. I'll not relying on others to make me happy. I'll try to not making excuses. I'll never look down on someone. And I'll try to not holding onto grudges!

And... about a 'relationship'. Mm-hm. I'm not sure about this. But I think I'll just choose to love someone in silence. Because I think in silence, I find no rejection. And in silence, no one owns that person but me :)

I don't really care anymore if someone will talk shit about me or left me or even don't wanna talk to me if something went wrong. They deserve to do what they wanna do. It's their decision. I'll just live here and  keep moving and be a better version of me :)

I couldn't think of any idea what to write anymore. I'm so so so sorry guys. I'm afraid if I'll late to my workplace hihihi.

Love, Neddy.




ps : I hope you guys understand that I wrote this in a rush T-T