Well now that I'm back again, I wanted to say sorry for not posting anything other than that only one post from last year 😶 and I'm glad to say that I am back now, even stronger.

I don't know what kind of post this one's going to be but surely, it will be long 😗

A lot of things happened last year, especially the coronavirus break and how it brings a lot of changes into our daily lives. Though it is still ongoing right now, I believe that every one of us are already getting used to this new norm and frankly I must say that I am proud to see that the new cases in my city is decreasing, and so for another cities. No matter in what city or country you're currently in right now, we are in this together! Since there are finally vaccines for covid-19, I hope you have already registered yourself to get vaccinated 🤍

I must say that I have been in a complete 'vacation' during 2020. Yes, I'd want to call that moment as a vacation. This is all because, I can say that I was in the journey of trying to get to know the outside world better. I made a big decision that I must say as a brave decision I have ever made in my life but I can't share it here, apparently. The first lockdown in my country that has been a year since two days ago was actually the mark of my complete hiatus from this blog. I was truly couldn't think of anything instead of just giving myself a break after I made that decision and live with that decision with an open heart.

Now that I am finally here now, I am happy to know that I didn't hold any grudges onto myself which means that I am completely fine and I even proud of myself. Well, looking back to 2020, it was not really a bad year at all. A lot of joys happened too. I made a lot of friends (especially the ones that aren't from my age), eventually leave those unhealthy relationships, realizing that life is not all about pleasing other people, gained strengths and confidence back, also slowly trying to get out of my comfort zone 🤍

I am truly grateful that I am here, alive, and present. And that we're finally in 2021, a year that feels like a new fresh chapter, a chance for me to lean on myself back, listens to my heart back, knowing what I want and work hard to make it happen, I promise myself to not thinking of giving up anymore. I mean, I probably will, for the next three months or ten minutes later, but I will give some space to myself to sit back to deal with the negative thoughts and come back to reality ♡

The past me has taught me to not being harsh to myself because that will makes it even worst. If you're reading this right now and thinking if I am being too easy to myself or manipulating myself, you're definitely incorrect and I feel sorry for that.

I know that we are in the middle of March 2021, but I think it is not too late for me to say happy new year to you guys ♡ Hoping and praying that 2021 will bring you comfort and happiness all along ♡

Just like the picture of the big, soft clouds moving (not literally) that I took during the quarantine time, I hope we all can moving on too from our past lives and not being hard to ourselves to do something we love. Remember, everything happens for a reason and we probably could not see it now, but have faith and keep on moving forward, and until then, you can take a look back and you'll agree with me that things will fall accordingly into its place at the right time ♡

Until my next post, to the bright and better future together ♡♡♡

Love, Nadhirah

ps: there will be a surprise soon, stay tune. hint: yt 👀