- 6:30 PM
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Hello December ! I still can't believe that we're so close to 2018. Time flies so fast and that scares me a lot. I've been planning to post this on 1st December but when I was editing this picture, I didn't realize that it's actually past 12 now... ugh.
But it's fine. So, my December would be busy... maybe? Because I got a lot of things to do. Oh, and I've listed it and it is a verrrry long list I've ever wrote hahah! Right now, I'm searching for a part time job, but the result is negative :/ And still, it is FINE.
My December would be my healing month. I think this is a great month to start a new life. I just realize that I need to love myself more. So, I gotta eat healthy, drink more plain water and workout for sure! I'd do anything to keep myself away from bad vibes. So, for now I guess I don't need to listen to what people said to me. Ugh. Just hoping that I'm that strong.
Guys, seems like I wrote another boring post, eh? Hahah. It's midnight now so I don't have any creative idea what to write. But again, it's fine.
So, I stop here and it's time to bed! I need to wake up early because that's actually what a healthy life is ;)
Love, Neddy.
- 12:30 AM
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FINALLY THE QUEEN FOUND HER FREEDOM !
Guys, there's no words that I could use to describe how delighted I am right now! I know I'm late to share this good news because my last papers (Economy subject) was on 28th November but, at least I made it :/
So, the last day of the SPM got me like 'HIPPP HIPPP HOOORAY!' I'm sooooo happy guys. Now, I don't have to think about the homeworks, and those messy tasks anymore, apparently. YAYERS !!
We (me and my friends) took a lot of pictures, actually. But, I'll share it in another post, later! I missed my blog so much. I didn't post anything since June! Damn, that's a long time haha.
Since I'm finally free now, so I got a lot of time to blog! Apparently, tomorrow is 1st December and I've been planning to start a new routine to get a better life, let's start from tomorrow!
Okay, enough for now. I know this is the most boring post everrr. I'll update a new post soon! I'd like to share my current situation since the SPM is over. Besides, I wanted to share my experiences when I was sitting for SPM in a month and maybe I'll share to you guys what is my 2018 goals. Oh, and for sure, I'll post about how do I feel after my high school life is over :)
Love, Neddy.
- 11:31 PM
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It's such a lovely to start this June with these lovely people! I started to love my classmates, guys :')
Friends that turned into family. That's what I love about friendship.
We become more close to each other day by day.
And I hope this friendship will remain forever ❤
Let's fight together for our SPM!
&& let's spend much more time together again after this please!!!
Remember that we are SEHATI SEJIWA ! HIHIHIHIHIHI
Lots of love, Neddy.
- 12:00 PM
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Goosebumps all across my body. Last night was magical and historic! Even though I wasn't there last night and only got a chance to watch it through live stream.
Reading all the tweets and videos from last night makes my heart feel warmth and tears streaming down. Huwaaaaa!
It's such a lovely to see all the celebrities who united and making the tribute and contribution for the tragedy. I would never forget this until my last breath! As a music lover, this tragedy has affected me too. This concert is a perfect example of how the power of love and unity that music creates can never be quelled by any twisted ideology or soul!
It was so wonderful to see all the tweets from the music fans from all around the world. This is what I love about music. Music unites people. It doesn't matter what races you are, what religion you are and where'd you come from. When a bunch of people can get together and they all can relate to one thing which is their love for music, it is a beautiful thing happens in the world.
I put so much respects on Ariana. She is such a strong woman. Truly my idol. I salute her.
United we stand, divided we fall.
My heart goes out to everyone involved.
And my thoughts are with the people of London after yet another horrific attack.
May God protect us.
Love, Neddy.
- 8:29 AM
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Salam and happy fasting to all my muslim friends out there! (better late than never hihi)
Woah, it has been a month since I updated last post. I'm sorry guys. I was very busy with school and mid year exam! And now it's June already. I don't know whether I should enjoy my midsem holidays or focus on finishing my assignment. Ugh. 5 months to go before school end! Yuhuuuu! Oh, and 154 days to go before SPM!!! Goosebumps.
I may be not always post anything on my blog like usual. Please understand guys, huwaaaa! It's time for me to focus on my study since the SPM trial is just around the corner after Eid. Wish the best luck for me..
Well, may this holy month of Ramadhan chase away the depression and misery that is getting the best out of us.
Ramadhan is the season where the fiery horns of the devils freeze. Let us take this opportunity to spread love and eradicate hatred.
Have a peaceful and blessed Ramadhan.
Happy Ramadhan!
Love, Neddy.
- 5:45 PM
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Music is love. Love is music. Music is life, and I love my life. I can't go a day without listening to music. It's kind of my medicine to heal from something. It makes me feel calm and fresh. These are my favorite new songs to start this April with full of good energy!
- Rockabye - Clean Bandit feat. Sean Da Paul & Anne Marie
- It Ain't Me - Kygo & Selena Gomez
- Something Just Like This - The Chainsmokers & Coldplay
Only a few weeks before mid-year exams begin and it's kind of makes me stress to think of it. I got a lot of things to do lately. But music is my painkiller. It makes me more controlled. Because where words fail, music speaks. Music is the universal language of mankind. It gives me happiness.
I'm sure that you guys use music just like me to make sure everything is okay. Aren't you? Because music can change your mood, thoughts and emotions more than other people do.
Love, Neddy.
- 10:30 AM
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The most awaited time has arrived!! I'm proud of you, Harry. Your voice never fails lighting up my day! Now, you're back again. Even with your debut solo song, I'm glad that you're back!
It is pretty insane because this tune hits number 1 in 19 countries in only a day! Maaaad. This tune is crazy. Now, it could be my favorite all the times! You guys should listen to it too! But, I'm freaking sure that you guys had already listening to it hihihi.
Once again, I'm really proud of you, Harry. And also with Niall and Louis. Now, it's your turn to slay, Liam... ;)
- 9:26 AM
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Hey guys! Long time no see. It's already April, guys!!! Gosh. Only a few months left before SPM! Fuh. Ey, I am really sorry cuz haven't post anything lately. I'm really busy with school and homework! But still, as promised, I wanna share with you guys about my trip to Kota Bharu, to Terengganu and back again to Kuantan. It was full of fun because the whole family was there. So many laughter and yummy foods!
Actually, I don't really took a lot of photos because my family and I were always in crowded places with thousands people. Well, that's not weird at all. I'm too shy to take out my camera and capturing photos in front of many people :/ But, my sister took a lot photos of me when we were there.
During my trip there, I've seen a lot of changes have occurred. It has been 2 years since the last time I was there. Time would kills me. It past too fast. I feel like I've been in coma for 2 years because I didn't notice the change.
However, I was really enjoyed the valuable time with the whole family's there. Oh, we promised each other to go there again soon, in July. May Allah ease everything.
Love, Neddy.
- 2:12 AM
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I don't know how this song could stole my heart. I'm very sensitive to the songs that I'd listening to before I go to bed because it may affect my morning on the next day. But this song is 'something'
It's like I'm listening to my childhood memories. It makes me wanna turn back time to the day where I was 5. To be honest, I do really miss my childhood. My glory days.
It also reminds me of my favorite childhood movie : Peter Pan as its mentioned the Neverland. Haha.
Like seriously, I wanna turn back time. Where I could watch my favorites Disney Movie 24/7. I miss those moments. Being a kid.
But I need to focus on the present. Because who knows, I will miss this moment in the future? So I need to enjoy every little things that's going on around me. And you should too!
Love, Neddy.
- 11:00 AM
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Who doesn't feel bored when completing our homework at home? Tell me! Copying eighteen essays, copying notes of history subjects, do a corrections of Accounting Principles test and so on! Mad! My left hand would sprained! Come on, teachers. I knew that I'll be sit for the SPM test. But this is cruel. So much. A lot of homework just because we got the holidays. But it's just for a week. Let me rest. Let us rest! Ugh.
Even though I got a lot of homework, but still I didn't ignore my desire to listen to my favorites music. So I just listen to them while completing my freaking homework. It helps me a lot. Because I didn't realize the time has passed when I do my homework. And then I'm done.
These four tunes might be my faves forever. It sounds superb and energize. At least for me. Hehehe.
Bad Things - Machine Gun Kelly x Camila Cabello
Shape Of You - Ed Sheeran
Scars To Your Beautiful - Alessia Cara
Let Me Love You - DJ Snake ft. Justin Bieber
I can't wait for this Friday. My family and I are going to Kota Bharu, Kelantan. It's been a long time. I miss my cousin there.
But still, I need to complete my homework first and then I can have some fun there!
Bye!
Love, Neddy.
- 6:24 PM
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People used to ask me million times, what my anxiety feels like. But they don't know, it's hard for me to explain.. as I mentioned it in my previous post before. But now, I think I need to explain to everyone. Everybody seems like they think this is just a joke from a silly girl like me.
Here guys. It feels stupid and weak. It's like I'm wandering in my own thoughts and suddenly I'm drowning in it. It starts with the happy one but then the scary one. Suddenly, I'm worrying about "what's next","and then what?" and "who else will leave?" and I know I shouldn't think about that too much. But I can't stop myself from sitting there and overthinking about everything. From over analyzing every decision I make. I can't help that my brain convinces me that everyone around me is talking behind my back.
Some days, I can't help it when I'm convinced I have no friends and that I'm just the girl who will always be the second option. Never a first priority and after awhile, I actually believe I deserve it. Ended up, I just sit there alone and quiet. And feeling empty.
I believe, it all starts with that person. That person who I thought can be trusted. When that person just started to ignore me. When that person don't wanna talk to me anymore. And when that person left. That person left me and have taught me to not trust people hundred percent anymore.
I hate to explain this. But here's the truth. Anxiety tries to beat me, tries to make me feel so much that I want to shut it all off. But, I can't.
It always happens when I think there's no one who needs me. When I show some efforts but people don't care. When I talk to people but they ignored. And when I try to be cheerful but people just feel annoyed.
Overall, I can say that anxiety is the pain that you feel when it's 2 AM. You don't have any idea how hurt it is until you feel it by your own.
So, instead of letting people and my own thoughts ruining me, I started to build a walls so impenetrable that not even my most trusted person could break through.
And yeah, that's what I actually feel about it.
Love, Neddy.
- 7:30 AM
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I'd like to describe these three girls with me (in the pictures above) in three words as a lovely, trusted and loyal. They're really important to me. They've been there when other friends did some bullshit to me and those things that have made me down a year ago.
Long story short, I'd like to call them as my sisters because I'm the youngest one amongst them. Hehe. Guys, I really hope that everything and every activities that we've plan to do in our future becomes true!
So far, we've created so many memories together. Whether the good times or bad, we still stand together. Remember, peace no war!
Love, Neddy.
ps: I edited this photo by myself. So it's kind of horrible :/
- 12:42 AM
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Hey guys! I'm back again as promised. Finally, exam week has passed!! So, it's time to wait for the school holidays. Who does not excited for the holiday?! Better go away.. Hahah kidding. I'd like to share my feelings about yesterday (Wednesday) which was the last day of examination.
It was a really stressful day because I need to study for the three killer subjects (for me..and of course for my classmates too) which is Accounting Principles, Additional Mathematics and Basic Economics in only 5 hours. Excellent student might think it is an enough time, but for me, it is not. Not at all. Well, 5 hours left to study at night because I was really busy preparing for my brother's birthday that evening. Go to the bakery, to the supermarket and so on. It takes about 5 hours to preparing the stuff.
But I'm okay. Even though I feel a bit unsatisfied with the examination schedule that has been made by one of our teachers. But to be honest, I think it is severe to unite the three killer subjects together in the same day. Seriously, mad. It can make the students be insane. Pheww.
Well, however the cruel week has passed. I feel so grateful for it. Oh, by the way I'd like to say congratulations to all the candidates of SPM 2016. It doesn't matter how many A's you've got or even there's no A's on your results slip. What more matter is, you keep going with your life and face it with courageous. Keep moving. This is not the end of your life. This is your beginning. As long as you make some efforts and struggle on what you're doing now for your lovely future.
Love, Neddy.
- 8:43 PM
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Hey guys! Long time no see!!! Of course I'm missing my blog, but I'm too busy with school. There's a lot of things to do as my school has played host to many programs earlier this year. And I'm proud of it!
Oh by the way, recently my school had organized a cross-country running competitions and I've got number #72. And I think it was worth it for me as this is my last year in school. Hihi.
So far, I'm doing good for 2017. I have held several key positions in the school this year. Lots of love to the teachers that believe in me!
Actually, I'm a bit nervous over this few weeks because the first test is about to begin in March! It's just around the corner! And I am not ready for it. To be honest. But as a student, I should just accept it with an open heart :/
By the way, wish me luck! I need to make my parents proud of me again, just like the last year :)
Love, Neddy.
ps: I'll be back on March, after the test is end.
- 10:47 PM
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